This picture was taken 5-1/2 years ago, when I could have entered into the grandmaster's over 50 competition for body building and probably would have placed in every contest in the country, but I came here to build a mission for the homeless, not to be in any contests, everyone told me to, but it was not my plan, I was staying in shape for the last 23 years and 4 months before I turned fifty I got this strange infection on November 13th, 2003 and still don't know what exactly it is. I wanted that mission to be built and I had plans for helping people and it just broke my heart that I could not help anyone, so all I could do was keep this church going and try to pray for as many people and help as many people I could. You all know I got sick, now I am under more attack then ever before, plus I still have not been diagnosed I still have the pain and suffering, plus now I have to many things more wrong with me to even list, as you read through this web-site and the story of this church you will see that all I wanted to do was to help people. Many congregations gained, many of the prayer letters changed people's lives and even had healing's, but me I still sit on a couch, a prisoner in my own home, a lot of what I make just on Social Security goes right back into this church well now it is a Public Charity according to the IRS, I don't know how long I can keep this up, I just can't afford it, but I am still helping many people, and if possible I can take these 260 sermons and prayers and turn them into a book. So I have to keep going -it is what Jesus wants us to do -to spread the Good News! This Month has been the hardest month in my life as far as attacks from the devil, I am really sick now, to where I can't even read half of my emails, On June 8th I got in the mail a form from Social Security it hit me with total confusion why me- what now, what is going on? Then I realized that probably everyone is going to get one of these forms I think to help us, not to let us suffer in the darkness of a room. I am getting hit so hard with paperwork, the devil is pushing all the right buttons and I have to hobble around on a cane trying to get the information for S.S. I don't drive, and getting a ride is almost impossible, so I can only go out one day at a time, because I am to tired to walk two days in a row, and just going to the Post Office this week took me 4-5 days because I was so sick, Filling out that S.S. form that looks small and simple, but if you really do what it says- you have a lot of work to do, and gathering the information made me so upset I was sick every morning from the stress, every morning I would be sick in the garbage can in the bathroom, and being sick more then you can ever imagine. My nerves were shot, the changing of my medication changed me, trying to get to places in this heat and trying still to look like a pastor, or minister (jacket and tie) if it gets any hotter it will be a tie and nice shirt. Since the 8th of June I have been a nervous trying to find the right paperwork going through files- upon files - and writing out the questions that take many pages of paper, like trying to explain the Church takes a lot of paper, and I at times can't even have the strength to make myself something to eat, even popping a can and eat some soup, or some fruit or vegetables, I also have to watch my digestion- If I eat something to binding in the morning I am in total fear just to go to the bathroom because of the pain and the worry about that double hernia operation , so to much tension can hurt me bad and when I get pain - then I begin to worry, anyone would, that operation day changed my life, I am scared to death of hospitals, even being a preacher, I think I got some type of post traumatic stress syndrome that day - the devil put that in my mind- So in the morning now I am faced with a double sickness- first just trying to go to the bathroom then I have to reach for the bucket to get sick in that on top of it, it is just another attack from the devil, he is trying to kill me, I thought it was all over, last week with all the paperwork and I had to send out two express mail letters because they wanted information as far back as 2 years, and I felt I had to wait for my doctor’s appointment on the 19th to get the last bit of information, which was my appointments, and I was sweating all weekend because I could not walk to the Post Office on that Saturday on the 20th when I walked so far on Friday the 19th, so Friday the Post office was closed after I got out of the doctor’s office, and Saturday I was to tired to walk back down there, I called S.S. Monday and a woman named Nora who I talked to twice, I was full of stress. She had to calm me down twice, each time we talked, I thought they were going to take away my S.S. then I would die, I am 120lbs. with my clothes and boots on, and been sick from all kinds of ailments, one is a bad infection undiagnosed for over 5 years, that is not going away, and it is hard enough for me to even live now, how would I survive being homeless, being a man of God I should not get so upset, maybe this is to build my faith and trust even more in the Lord. The devil just knows how to push my buttons, when you’re helpless; all you can do is depend on God. So Nora helped me calm down again, she just said send it like an attachment regular mail, I was sick Monday the 22nd but I still hobbled down to the P.O. in tears and sent that too express, it was just a list of my doctors appointments. With the copy of the other express mail receipt as an attachment that I sent on the 13th, so at least they can be together- she said I could send it regular mail but by then I was having a panic attack caused by the devil on top of some heavy spiritual warfare so I had a paragraph written and explained everything, and added it as an attachment with the regular envelope on the 22nd. the numbers were ED 994435723 US so I hope someone got that and put it all together with the first one which was so big, I didn't really know what to send, but I did what I felt God wanted me to do. She said that would be fine just to send it regular mail, but I wanted to make sure it got there and fast and numbered and signed by someone, plus I had the tracking numbers, I felt that was all over I got everything they wanted for the last 2 years, I guess some people just fill in the boxes, and put it in the mail and think nothing of it. It does seem simple --but when you call, and you get a person that wants everything in the last 2 years and put it on a separate piece of paper. They want more then just to fill in the boxes. That was when I called the first time they wanted every prescription I had in the last 2 years, that was more then fill in a few boxes, that is where the confusion and the stress came in, that is why I was getting so sick in the morning just waking up to reality. I had pages of prescriptions; Thank God the Pharmacy was close, on the ball, and they had the compassion and care I needed at that time. God Bless a good friend -There were pages upon pages, how could someone else possibly do something like that if they threw away all their bottles? Then I called again and the person wanted more information. Maybe I just should have filled in the boxes and sent it in the envelope provided. So Saturday I finally felt better, I started to eat, and I was strong enough to walk to the Post Office- plus get some air, some sun- and I opened my P.O. box and now I have to fill out paperwork for Medicaid, I almost blacked out, right there in the Post Office, and that is not the first time. I sat and shed tears and asked God why? I knew it was Satan again. What did I do- and I am the one suffering, I am the one sick, I am the one wondering if I am going to live much longer? Then more pain came and more fear, and less and less energy I had day to day. Now I have to gather paperwork all over again, and finding the stuff is rough, because you just went through it and everything is all mixed up from S.S. I prayed with tears all day yesterday and I planed to do a sermon when I got home, but when I got the normal form to fill out for Medicaid I have not been the same since, something happened to me, I am very sensitive and a perfectionist and I do things the best I can do. That is why I struggle to keep this Church alive. I get no donations just beautiful letters, and invites to help the poor countries for me to go there and help them heal and preach. We all should be doing what Jesus asked us to do in the great commission. Help each other; share what we have with each other, not to have wars and to have kindness to all mankind and joy with a life full of Love. {Go ye therefore, and teach all nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father, and of the Son, and of the Holy Ghost: Teaching them to observe all things whatsoever I have commanded you: and, lo, I am with you always, even unto the end of the world. Amen. (Matt. 26:19-20 KJV)}& { Go ye into all the world, and preach the gospel to every creature. He that believeth and is baptized shall be saved; but he that believeth not shall be damned. And these signs shall follow them that believe; In my name shall they cast out devils; they shall speak with new tongues; They shall take up serpents; and if they drink any deadly thing, it shall not hurt them; they shall lay hands on the sick, and they shall recover. So then after the Lord had spoken unto them, he was received up into heaven, and sat on the right hand of God. And they went forth, and preached every where, the Lord working with them, and confirming the word with signs following. Amen. (Mark 16:15-20 KJV)} You have all heard me preach these verses before, but they are so important, we all should be out there helping one another,
Again there was a day when the sons of God came to present themselves before the LORD, and Satan came also among them to present himself before the LORD.
And the LORD said unto Satan, From whence comest thou? And Satan answered the LORD, and said, From going to and fro in the earth, and from walking up and down in it. And the LORD said unto Satan, Hast thou considered my servant Job, that there is none like him in the earth, a perfect and an upright man, one that feareth God, and escheweth evil? and still he holdeth fast his integrity, although thou movedst me against him, to destroy him without cause. And Satan answered the LORD, and said, Skin for skin, yea, all that a man hath will he give for his life. But put forth thine hand now, and touch his bone and his flesh, and he will curse thee to thy face. And the LORD said unto Satan, Behold, he is in thine hand; but save his life. (Job 2:1-6 KJV)
