I am so sorry for not doing the last two sermons, due to sickness I have been getting sicker and sicker as time goes by people are still praying for me and my email is corrupted so I can’t even know or understand certain messages. The thing is I do get some messages, and then the email crashes, so I can’t open it up any more, I have to deal with more stress just to open an email, then I get sick all over again, but I have been now this day on the 21st of June able to sit up, I have been laying down and that is it, I have to push myself to walk, the other day I was so sick I keep getting sick and my body was just releasing what ever bug I had or I still have, now I have a spitting headache and have to take some aspirins. No one knows what I have been going through. My prayers are with you all, and at night I just start blessing everyone I can think of, even all my family, all the way church members, staff, all my prayer partners, pastors and ministers throughout the world, plus all the extended congregations, ministries and churches and all my friends- and as I call "family", the whole church is family, plus my regular blood family-- my step sister is not doing so well she has Lupus and it has been close for her, the only person in my blood family is my mother that I talk to and she said my hurt step sister says what ever Paul and the ministry is doing just- to keep it up, so the prayers have been helping her. My mom, she has changed and truly loves me and cares and my love for my mother is a full in the heart love, my mother has saved me from death and God will reward her. I want to let her be fully blessed and loved, to all my friends please send a prayer towards my mom. All I want to do is love the rest of the family, blood and friends and loved ones- family, I miss talking to you all, I have had a temperature for days now, cold sweets, waking up soaking wet, where I have to change my clothes and freeze- my T-shirt and pants and PJ's would be wet, and that may happen twice a night I have to change clothes. I don't know what it is maybe I should be in the hospital, I don't know what to do. I still what to preach and start the church/mission downtown, if I stayed on the east coast I would be heart broken because I never would have learned the lessons I would figure God would want me to learn, so it became years since I saw most of the blood family, but I just love them all, I love all people, and want to help as many people as I can, I want people to understand and learn about Christ, and to believe in Jesus and love Him. I became a minister, priest and a Chaplain and still never got married, and live 5,000 miles away from where I came from, and I love and have Jesus as my family, so I am not alone, and all I want to do is love my dad and his wife and my little brother and his whole family, plus the outer family and put my arms around them all. I traveled the country as a Christian and sang, and played the guitar and carried a- back-pack-tent-cooking stuff- ground foam plus everything else,- part of the way I had a camera, then I had to pick up Post cards from the places I have been, like many of the National Parks and recreation areas- like Yellowstone and the Black Hills which I have been to several times. I made an impression on people at all the campfires in many Parks. The parks in Canada are so different and beautiful- but the life and learning I had and gained -the many travels could never be replaced. Why am I here in Hawaii, I don’t plan to go anywhere. I wanted that mission and it was all set and moving, and I got sick and spent the savings and dropped my credit I just want The Church Ministries to prosper, and help people, how can I do this when I am getting bombarded by evil, and my equipment is not even working well, everything is hanging by a shoe string. I need to take more pictures, I need ink, I can’t even gather the pictures I have had in the camera for about a year, all I need is 8 bucks, a ride and an hour to get the pictures on a CD- my camera is digital but old, so I have to have a CD made. I have one day that may be good, and the rest of the week I just lie sick. I just need someone to find a building for the mission downtown, I just pray I will get my health back it has been 4-1/2 years now, please pray for me. I try to pray for everyone I can think of as I lie on my back. I was doing the Great commission and didn’t even realize it. Jesus said Go and I did, it just came natural. I don’t know why or how I kept going, but I did and many people I meet got to know me and maybe the goodness rubbed off on some. The same with the sermons I don’t know if I will ever be able to do another. It hurts my body and my mind staying up all those hours. All I can say is anyone who is trying to email me someway or somehow I will get a new computer and answer or get this one fixed again when I am able. I had 1 man look at this computer and he said is wasn't put together with heart and things are going wrong now. All the pictures and print is moving all over the screen. This explains my sickness for the week of June 8th-&15th and I don’t know if I will ever feel ok to do a new sermon. I can not go through anymore stress, I just get sicker all over again. Attack after attack, I need to remain calm, I can not fight with this computer. God Bless you all, with all your prayers- God will heal me. My heart is fluttering now, I have to stop. Keep Praying for everyone, don't forget the list on the back button, plus please pray for The Presidential Prayer team, we need to pray for our leadership, keep love always in your heart. I love you all, and that will never change.
