Sunday_Service

Dear Heavenly Father, We love you, and we cherish your teachings, and your trials, knowing what is best for us always, Dear Lord when we are tempted to cast our confidence away, and we start to loose our faith through compounding discouragements, please build us up, we know you have perfect plans for each one of us, please increase our trust in You, and help us to do our part by seeking and worshiping You with all our hearts. Please help us to please You, and teach us how to pray for more strength to stand firm no matter what evil comes through the cracks, or any type of attack, pain or suffering that comes against us. Teach us to be strong, with your strength, not ours. In the Loving Name of Jesus, Amen.

Good morning everyone here in Hawaii and throughout the world, I guess I will go through this sermon from the hip, most of you all know that I have been deeply suffering, and have gone through a great amount of anguish, distress, misery, torment, and pain. My body is week, but the power of God is strong, and He will do the speaking today, not me, through the influence of the Holy Spirit, as He enters into everyone’s hearts, ears, eyes, spirits, and computers, and all who here and read this sermon today, may you all be blessed and anointed, by the three in one, and the one in three. Please turn you bibles to 2Cor. 12:8

Three times I pleaded with the Lord to take it away from me. But he said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ's power may rest on me. That is why, for Christ's sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong.2Cor. 12:8-10 NIV

Well I have pleaded with the Lord more than three times, and my body is very week and very anxious of what illness has become of me. I have constantly asked the Lord for healing, and I pray so much for others, how am I going to build up other people, when I can’t even build up myself? Have I failed ? I can’t get that touch of the Holy Spirit and I don’t really know what to say, maybe I am doomed, it might be all over, anyway. I am feeling all alone, I guess some of you out there, have felt the same way, I have had people lie to me, torment me, not care about me, and all the drive that I thought I had, is gone. So the next question is, am I saved anymore, am I still a Christian, is all this pain and suffering to much for me? Let us all be truthful, there is nothing that I can do, without the power of God, or the filling of the Holy Spirit, and the love and peace from Jesus.

This Church, We wanted it to stand out, we wanted to save souls, we wanted a mission, to feed and cloth, and be able to give housing to the poor, and yet none of this is happening. I feel I am all alone, Loneliness can kill the insides in a person more then anything, not to be able just to talk to people is a major dilemma , and the Lord has given me all these gifts, like discernment for instance, that is my greatest gift. I can tell if there is a spirit of love in a persons heart, or the spirit of hate, or any other condition the way a person feels, like happiness, joy hardship, broken, just to name a few.

Now I can hardly speak to people about Jesus or even comfort them, and it is awful hard to witness to new people without any teeth. It is not really noticeable, but I cannot smile, I have overcome the humility of my looks, but it is still hard to feel like yourself, and you can’t expose any cheer or joy because you cannot smile, and it actually hurts to talk.

There is a train in New York City in the subway system called the A train it rides up and down 8th avenue, in Manhattan, now during rush hour, and you are standing on the platform and the doors open, if you don’t have body contact, and yell and scream, and actually push and pull people, you will not get on the train. Now as time goes by, as you are riding from street to street, more and more people get on and you are slowly pushed to the center of the car. Now if it is your stop and it is time to get off, if you don’t push grab, yell, scream, and nudge all these people, you will not get off, the train. And people live like that everyday over there, day in, day out, If you took a person from a another place, let’s say a farm or small town, who is not used to all of this, and put them in the same situation they would never get to work on time, and they would probably never get home.

No temptation has seized you except what is common to man. And God is faithful; he will not let you be tempted beyond what you can bear. But when you are tempted, he will also provide a way out so that you can stand up under it. 1Cor. 10:13

But were do you draw the line, God will not give you more than you can handle, I can’t even get off the train. What am I supposed to do stand on this train and get crushed and stay restricted on this train, and never get off. Do I have to yell and scream push or shove to get some help? Or am I afraid to grab people and tell them I am being crushed to death? No one wants to help me get better, and the fear of it all has come upon me. Am I living in fear?

I have battled this over and over, the tests are getting harder an harder; God gives us these tests so we get stronger. So we can get to the next level, for what he wants us to do, we all have to be trained to fight, before we can take on a greater battle.

Consider it all joy, my brethren, when you encounter various trials, knowing that the testing of your faith produces endurance.

And let endurance have its perfect result, so that you may be perfect and complete, lacking in nothing. James 1:2-4 NASV

All discipline for the moment seems not to be joyful, but sorrowful; yet to those who have been trained by it, afterwards it yields the peaceful fruit of righteousness.

Therefore, strengthen the hands that are weak and the knees that are feeble,

and make straight paths for your feet, so that the limb which is lame may not be put out of joint, but rather be healed. Heb. 12:11-13 NASV

For instance Moses standing in front of the Red Sea, and all these screaming people are crying about and saying what are we going to do now Moses? If God didn’t give Moses all these tests before this, then He would not have had the faith to call on the power of God to move the waters. In the beginning he was afraid when God told him what to do at the burning bush, but it seems that God did give him the power, and the strength.

These last three months without being able to eat has affected me, I have no strength left, I am very sick, and I am getting bombarded by the evil one, constantly. I am getting tormented by everything that I know is well and good, I don’t see the good, everything seems to be a lie, I needed some proper medical care and I don’t have it, and I don’t know what to do anymore, except to tell the truth. I will have to turn now to Job.

These outcasts oppose me to my face. They send me sprawling; they lay traps in my path. They block my road and do everything they can to hasten my calamity, knowing full well that I have no one to help me. They come at me from all directions. They rush upon me when I am down. I live in terror now. They hold me in contempt, and my prosperity has vanished as a cloud before a strong wind.

"And now my heart is broken. Depression haunts my days. My weary nights are filled with pain as though something were relentlessly gnawing at my bones. With a strong hand, God grabs my garment. He grips me by the collar of my tunic. He has thrown me into the mud. I have become as dust and ashes.

"I cry to you, O God, but you don't answer me. I stand before you, and you don't bother to look. Job 30:12-20 NLT

The devil wants this church and ministry to fail, and I can’t have one good day, I am diminishing at a distance. But I can’t give up; I have to keep fighting this evil darkness. I cry to the Lord over and over, and still I don’t here Him. I guess my pleading to the Lord is like in Luke 18:1-8

One day Jesus told his disciples a story to illustrate their need for constant prayer and to show them that they must never give up. "There was a judge in a certain city," he said, "who was a godless man with great contempt for everyone. A widow of that city came to him repeatedly, appealing for justice against someone who had harmed her. The judge ignored her for a while, but eventually she wore him out. `I fear neither God nor man,' he said to himself, `but this woman is driving me crazy. I'm going to see that she gets justice, because she is wearing me out with her constant requests!' "Then the Lord said, "Learn a lesson from this evil judge. Even he rendered a just decision in the end, so don't you think God will surely give justice to his chosen people who plead with him day and night? Will he keep putting them off? I tell you, he will grant justice to them quickly! But when I, the Son of Man, return, how many will I find who have faith?"

Look at me, I am being pulverized everyday, day after day, my health is shocking, my philosophy is all off, I am running a fever on a daily basis, and it is almost like my intellect is being cooked. I can’t reflect on anything right, and I am full of terror, everything that will go wrong, does, constantly I am getting hit by every dart, projectile, and arrow by the evil one. All my talents are being exhausted, and I keep praying, and hoping.

Because of the voice of the enemy,

Because of the pressure of the wicked;

For they bring down trouble upon me

And in anger they bear a grudge against me.

My heart is in anguish within me,

And the terrors of death have fallen upon me.

Fear and trembling come upon me,

And horror has overwhelmed me. Psalm 55:3-5 NAS

Thursday night I wasn’t even able to pray for anyone, now who suffers not only me, but at least ten others, that I could have comforted, or saved there souls, or even their lives. Because of a phone call, and a decision of one man telling my friend and fellow Christian and prayer partner, to give me an ultimatum with no choice, about my medical care, to tell me we don’t have enough reason to bring you over to this island, so you stay on that island and go back to a doctor who you cannot even stand in his office without shaking, and that is the only choice you have, and the appointment you made a month ago with a doctor you don’t even know, and not sure if he will show up. And it took over 10 days of paperwork, phone calls, hope, suffering, prayer, and waiting, to say no, we cannot help you? Well that broke me, not only my heart, but my spirit again.

Endure suffering along with me, as a good soldier of Christ Jesus. And as Christ's soldier, do not let yourself become tied up in the affairs of this life, for then you cannot satisfy the one who has enlisted you in his army. Follow the Lord's rules for doing his work, just as an athlete either follows the rules or is disqualified and wins no prize. Hardworking farmers are the first to enjoy the fruit of their labor. Think about what I am saying. The Lord will give you understanding in all these things. Never forget that Jesus Christ was a man born into King David's family and that he was raised from the dead. This is the Good News I preach. And because I preach this Good News, I am suffering and have been chained like a criminal. But the word of God cannot be chained. I am willing to endure anything if it will bring salvation and eternal glory in Christ Jesus to those God has chosen. 2Tim. 2:4-10 NLT

Why didn’t they just tell me the truth, why did they wait so long, why play games with my life? Are people being motivated and manipulated by Satan ? So in other words if you do not have the spirit of God working in you , what other spirit is functioning in people's lives?

The god of this age has blinded the minds of unbelievers, so that they cannot see the light of the gospel of the glory of Christ, who is the image of God. For we do not preach ourselves, but Jesus Christ as Lord, and ourselves as your servants for Jesus' sake. For God, who said, "Let light shine out of darkness," made his light shine in our hearts to give us the light of the knowledge of the glory of God in the face of Christ. But we have this treasure in jars of clay to show that this all-surpassing power is from God and not from us. We are hard pressed on every side, but not crushed; perplexed, but not in despair; persecuted, but not abandoned; struck down, but not destroyed. We always carry around in our body the death of Jesus, so that the life of Jesus may also be revealed in our body. For we who are alive are always being given over to death for Jesus' sake, so that his life may be revealed in our mortal body. So then, death is at work in us, but life is at work in you.2Cor.4:4-12 NIV

What else is going to happen, it is not only physical it is intellectual, I woke up in the next morning and I was in complete fear, I had to get up and walk up the hill, and I could barely make it, I was so week, and I was praying again, and pleading to God, I just can not take all this mistreatment, pounded upon me. It is all similar to Job 3:25-26

Each day I pray for an angel, and each day I pray for a stepping stone to cross this great river of life, and I’ll tell you ever since I arrived here, it seems I am looked down upon. I don’t feel the inner peace anymore. I don’t feel the power of God; it is like where are you Lord? Like in Isaiah 58:8-9a

Then your light will break forth like the dawn, and your healing will quickly appear; then your righteousness will go before you, and the glory of the LORD will be your rear guard. Then you will call, and the LORD will answer; you will cry for help, and he will say: Here am I

I know God is there, and I know Christ is in me, but why all the torment, Tuesday I stood and shook, while people purposely made my life miserable, so that more fear would enter into my body, I knew God would fix the circumstances, but those 2 hours were the hardest, 2 hours I have felt a great stress, because someone was persistently trying to tear down my life and add more fear to it. But this is what Satan and his agents do, if you are not aimed at by the spirit of God, and then you are being bound for by the spirit of Satan.

Once you were dead, doomed forever because of your many sins. You used to live just like the rest of the world, full of sin, obeying Satan, the mighty prince of the power of the air. He is the spirit at work in the hearts of those who refuse to obey God. All of us used to live that way, following the passions and desires of our evil nature. We were born with an evil nature, and we were under God's anger just like everyone else.

But God is so rich in mercy, and he loved us so very much, that even while we were dead because of our sins, he gave us life when he raised Christ from the dead. (It is only by God's special favor that you have been saved!) For he raised us from the dead along with Christ, and we are seated with him in the heavenly realms--all because we are one with Christ Jesus. Eph. 2:1-6 NLT

Dear Father, We are all sorry for the way things have gotten so entangled this week, I am sorry we are not as strong as we think we are, or may have assumed we are. We are nothing without You, and we all can’t take this load upon ourselves. We have to look towards You first, not anyone or anything else. We go through tests, some get an A and some fail, but without the proper understanding, and the reading of the scriptures, and other physical and emotional traumas, our faith should remain strong, no matter what. We all get to involved in the world, even though we are sick, we should pray for ourselves, and pray for others as a group, because You Lord are our healer, please forgive us, we should depend on Your help and Your strength, to make it through, this dark and cold world. We all know you want to make us better people, for your glory and for the future kingdom, and to help each other along the way. We understand we need to grow, please forgive us for being so human, and please guide us to the light, In Jesus Name, Amen.